Thanks for coming by the place I spill my guts out for you guys to read.
I really enjoy eating, reading, shopping, travelling, gaming… pretty much everything! I’d at least try anything once.
After struggling with being diagnosed with Clinical Depression a few years ago, I’ve had a constant uphill battle to feel better and do good for myself, and for others. I definitely won’t give up without a fight.
But, recently life has knocked me down pretty hard.
I went to the Philippines with my family a few months ago. Somehow while exploring the amazing beautiful lagoons in El Nido, I ended up with a corneal ulcer in my right eye (water splashed in my face and guess I was one of the lucky ones that got the parasite to eat away at my eye.)
The next day, I woke up in so much pain, and my vision quickly deteriorated in that eye. Just my luck. We were headed to Bangkok that day. I ended up seeing spending a few days at the Eye Hospital there(it was actually an amazing facility), the doctors unsure of how long I would have to stay in Bangkok, if I would need surgery, if my cornea was going to melt away, if I would lose my eye.
I wanted to go home. I’ve never felt so helpless.
Eventually they put me on an intensive antibiotic regimen, and a week later I arrived back home in Winnipeg to go straight to see an Ophthalmologist to continue treatment.
She gave me a bit of hope. Even told me I could go back to work (and ease in with a few hours a day until I felt more comfortable).
Then after a week at work, my boss called me.
“I have to lay you off.”
And my life changed. I felt that I lost everything. I was never so depressed as I was then. I can’t even drive myself around because of my eye. What do I do now? How am I going to pay my rent? Where did my independence go?
So many things went through my mind. I didn’t sleep. Didn’t eat. I cried all day and didn’t want to live anymore. I wanted to give up.
It was a very dark time.
I’ve luckily had the best family and friends to help drive me to appointments, grocery shopping, to keep me company, and to try to get my spirits up.
One day during my online job search, I came across some links to some blogs. I didn’t do anything all day except spend my time on a bunch of job search engines, so I thought some reading would be good. Everyone’s stories were so inspiring, how far they’ve come with their journey, how happy they were to take on blogging. I wanted to be happy like them.
And now that is all history!
I still struggle with depression. That will never go away. I still can’t see 100% out of my right eye, and the future of my vision is still unknown. But blogging has given me a new outlet to put my energy into.
You’ll see my posts vary from food, cosmetics, random reviews, mental health, and anything in between.
This is my journey and I want you to come along!
I was the most depressed I’ve ever been, and now I’m blogging to have a positive outlet. Come and read my journey!